-i've been listening to emily hanes a lot... even though her album kind of sucks, she has a bored sad quality that i enjoy.
-i've been listening to swan lake a lot, and what's his face from destroyer's voice makes me want to box my ears half the time... but the songs that are great become really brilliant after about the 15th listen.
-i've been listening to my brain a lot, and i can't say that it's doing all that much to help me out.
-i'm pretty sure that i've lost about 10 pounds recently as a result of being vegan, and since i've started going to the gym again, i should be in pretty great shape by summer. hurrah.
-i think that i might try to join a basketball league for the summer.
-i just realized that i kind of look like a muppet in my new lj userpic.

dear cons paper,
you're interesting and all... but can't you just please write yourself?
thanks.
-altaira

holy term papers... i am walking straight into a school induced panic attack...

-made some delicious basil/walnut pesto yesterday, and put it on some pizzas with a bunch of other yummy things. it turns out that vegan feta is actually pretty tasty.
-there was a creepy old guy at the gym this morning... on top of creeping me out by staring at me while i was on the treadmill, he was also lifting weights totally improperly, which always makes me want to walk up to people and tell them about proper weight lifting form.
-this weekend was kind of horrible.
-perspective can be a good thing, and also a bad thing.
-i think that i kind of hate my livejournal posts lately. i should probably just stop.

I put a hex on the telephone line that brought your voice to me
disembodied and cheapening everything it used to mean.

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i know that i write about school often, but it's finally almost over.
three more papers, one group project, two final exams, and a math class.

re-connecting with old friends is so rewarding, and there has been a lot of that lately.

i go through periods of listening to the same few songs obsessively.

if i were a better photographer, i would try to catch the shadow play on the building across the lane...

i feel a seachange coming.

yesterday was the first day that i really realized how much better i feel, physically, as a result of being vegan...
i made up for it by drinking and smoking way too much, and waking up with a wretched hangover.

dear avril lavigne,
i hate you.
-altaira

today i went out to ubc for my second class... but instead spent half an hour flipping through magazines in the bookstore and then came home.

other things:
-i don't think that i'm going to be going out much in the upcoming weeks. term papers are due... and besides, i'm just really not that into it right now. hit me on my beeper (cell phone) if you want to have a hangout where we make buttons or cook or something.
-my roots are no longer bothering me as much as i thought that they would... i can't wait to be blonde again. (change your hair, change your life!)
-i'm attempting to plan an extended trip to new york this summer... one that might involve a working visa... does anyone have any suggestions? connections? advice? the desire to possibly rent out our dining room turned into a make-shift bedroom for a few months??
-three and a half months of university left.
-hunter the cat is the best little creature ever.
-huzzah.

emailed my prof earlier today to ask her if one of the pizza's that she ordered for tonight's "debate" could be meatless, cheeseless.
She said, "actually it's too late for me to do that."
i think, "oh, she probably ordered them from pie r squared or from ubc catering or something... i totally should have asked her yesterday when there would have been time to change the order."
turns out, she ordered them from panago... so actually, she's just a lazy asshole.

also... turns out the girl in my group is speaking is a terrible speaker that gets really confused, and ignores all of the gmail messages that i send her specifically outlining things that she could say...

again... group projects!!!!!!

i HATE group projects.

i am having one of those days where i am totally brain dead... there is so much work to do! somehow though, my brain just won't get with the program...

went for breakfast with jordan and darcy this morning, and was pleased to still be able to get some version of crappy diner breakfast (veggie hash with fried tomatoes instead of eggs, and dry toast). it was actually pretty great, and i didn't feel like crap afterwards. hurray!

i am excited for the upcoming week to be over so that i have at least one of the more boring assignments for the term out of the way...
also, next weekend renee is helping me to fix my hair, and adam is helping me to make my computron happy again.

i haven't really done much of anything today except for snack, and noodle around on the internet looking at vegan recipe sites...
and now i am writing a really boring lj entry...

two ways to describe myself this morning:

hungover. voiceless.

-i bought some floradix today. normal iron levels, here i come!
-i hate it when anyone talks about doing anything with their "man"
examples: "just chillin' with my man.", "my man hates it when i read cosmo.", "girl, that is my man!"
-last night i made some thai yellow curry for dinner. jake made this great curried tofu, cumin flatbread, and a mix of jasmine and black thai rice. DELICIOUS!
-making out! it's amazing.
-after this poli sci class is over, i never want to talk about climate change policy again.
-who can help me come up with a solution while i am transitioning from red to blonde hair?? paying my hairdresser 100 bucks or something for a five hour hair session is not an option...
my roots are almost too much for me to handle... and it's greatly hindering my ability to feel attractive or stylish.
-see all y'all at the modern tonight!

OMG. had i known that it would take me over an hour to re-format or whatever my ipod to work on my pc... i would have just accepted that i wouldn't be able to listen to Beach House on my way to work today...
(i guess that after 20 minutes, i could have accepted that i wouldn't be able to listen to ANY music... but hey... that's what flexible work hours do to you...)

other things:
-life is full of ups and downs these days. it's sunny outside, and i can't believe that i have to think about term papers this week.

-i really really really want a new, reliable, road bike so that i can actually start riding my bike to work/school/everywhere at some point in the near future. i'm not sure how to make this happen.

-sadly, i think that tattooing will have to be postponed until summertimes. le sad.

-i think that i have convinced myself that djarums do not count as cigarettes, and that they are not bad for me. dun dun DUN. sorry lungs, i still love you!

-i had my first real non-vegan cravings yesterday. i just couldn't stop thinking about eating eggs. like, maybe with huevos rancheros from slickety's... so i guess eggs with cheese...
i also had a dream on saturday that i kept going to eat different things, and then realizing that they weren't vegan and being really bummed out...

-LIVEJOURNAL!

this weekend was totally fucked up.

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dear friends,
thanks for being friends.
particular thanks to dustin and renee.

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lately, i feel as though i am doing my very best just to hang on...
how is it that i am back in this place?
although i guess that this time, i am better equipped to deal.

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you know, everyone is entitled to a vague, mildly depressed livejournal entry every now and then... am i right?

dear the internet,
i am kind of bored, and far too sleepy to get any real work done.
please entertain me.

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dear mayonnaise,
i miss you. you are so tasty and creamy on sammiches, veggie dogs, yam fries... anything really.
i am sorry, that after many good years together, that we have had to part ways.
it's just time to move on.
if you ever lose the egg, and still taste good, give me a call.

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dear body,
after consuming only four beers last night, why are you so hungover?
i also gave you vitamins and a smoothie this morning... what gives?

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dear friends,
i just got home to an empty apt. i am sleepy and a little hungover, and really wish that i had someone to snuggle with...



xo
-altaira

if i believed strongly in astrology... i would say that incredibly fucked up things are happening with the stars right now.

hurray!
-i went to the dentist today, and now my teeth are sooooooooo clean. also, NO CAVITIES!!
-i love portabello mushrooms! and chipotle! and black beans!
-i ran into my mum the other day, and told her that i was a vegan now. i talked to her on the phone today, and she asked me if i was still a vegan... and would i also still be a vegan at easter?
-sleepiness happens.
-school is about to get stupidly busy.
meow.

some days you just wish that all of your closest friends only lived a block away...
or that they were in your living room...

i like to call it "lost wages".

why is it that i have such a problem keeping my iron levels steady??
ALTAIRA, JUST TAKE IRON EVERY DAY! OK?

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notes for today:

-sangria is a hell of a drug.
-drop in visitors are oh so nice, as are visitors from out of town.
-reading for school is over-rated... so is disappointment.
-anemia hits you really hard sometimes. floradix is a girl's best friend.
-chickpea flour is amazing.
-love hits you really hard sometimes. jake is a girl's best friend.
-cooking with friends is nice.

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what's up tonight, kids?

dear jake, you are impatient and i hate you.
JUST KIDDING!!

so, vegan times started this week... which is exciting.
i am starting off with the idea that it is going to be for a month... but i am pretty sure that it is actually going to be for life.
hurray!

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on another note... i feel kind of talentless lately. i am moderately good at a large amount of things, but not REALLY good at anything... except maybe procrastinating.
i am usually too self-concious or embarrased to learn anything from people, and it's kind of getting me down. if there's one thing that i need to learn more than anything this year, it's that i don't need to ALREADY be AMAZING at something before i can ask questions or share something with other people or whatever.
i am silly.

jesus, is university over yet??? no, but it will be in 4 months.
holy shit.